Experience Sharing on Working in the Media
By Malaysia practitioner De Hui
Greeting to Master and fellow practitioners!
Looking back at the truth-clarification projects I participated in during my cultivation, it seems that I was tempering myself in the process, because I will have to bear greater responsibilities in the future.
By chance, I came up with the idea of joining self-Media as a full-time worker. I learned that the purpose of self-Media is to prove some unsolved mysteries from a rational perspective, and encourage the audience to be more accepting of things that are beyond science. After discussing the job scope, I decided to join as a script writer and graphic designer.
Although I have always understood through the Fa, that the theory of evolution is false and that traditional Chinese culture is a culture passed down by Gods. My understanding remains superficial.
In my work in self-media, as I need to study a lot of information before writing an article, I have been exposed to many mysterious and unsolved mysteries. When I wrote it myself, I felt that I could better understand what Master mentioned in “Zhuan Falun”, the Fa about prehistoric culture and various religious matters.
Temper Oneself
After joining the self-media, I clearly felt that Master immediately arranged a lot of tests and opportunities for me to improve, and I regained my cultivation environment.
First of all, in terms of work skills, I originally thought that my Chinese proficiency was good, but this pride caused me to stumble.
Self-media has completely different requirements on scripts compared to news writing. I thought that I had put in my best efforts to do a good job and cooperated well with fellow practitioners. However, the result was completely not up to standard. At that time, my self-esteem was severely damaged. It made it difficult for me to accept criticism, I was so upset and had conflicts with other practitioners.
Later I realized that these blows were targeting my attachments and karma.
In fact, underneath that pride is an inferiority complex. I have always lacked self-confidence. Therefore, in my past work, I often pursued work efficiency and completed it as soon as possible. On the surface, I would cooperate with the practitioner but within my heart, I was extra careful, worrying that I might take the wrong step. However, this actually does not involve independent thinking and I can’t focus on how to truly write a good script.
It seems like I was trying hard to do well, but deep down in my heart, I wanted recognition from others, ultimately to protect my self-esteem. Frankly said, I am not truly cooperating with others, but only fear of being hurt. Basically, it is for selfish reasons.
In fact, now that I think about it, maybe the hurtful ones are the attachment that need to be relinquished, and the ones that are afraid of being removed are also the attachment, not my true self.
In the process of getting rid of these attachments, I felt extremely painful. I even struggled many times and refused to face them. In severe cases, I would fall into a whirlpool of negative emotions.
This kind of struggle has happened many times, and most of them are extreme. When I am in a good state, I can get through it. But when I am not that diligent, I have no righteous thought. When negative emotions arise, I can’t bear it and want to give up.
Later, I realized that these negative emotions were not caused by work pressure, but had been with me since I was a child. Now that it has popped up many times, it may be time to get rid of it, that is exactly why when it arose it was so extreme.
When I understood these through the Fa, my emotions calmed down in an instant. Just like what Master said: The worse you might feel, the closer you are to the turning point, and your entire body will be, and must be, fully cleansed. I understood that this was an opportunity arranged by Master so that I can get rid of these negative matters. I understood that Master was still taking care of me, I am so blessed.
Whenever I can calm down or realize that I need to cultivate myself, I expressed my heartfelt gratitude to fellow practitioners for their corrections on my script. I was so grateful for them being responsible for the work. Moreover, the revised script is really much better.
Under these trainings, I began to be able to really focus on writing scripts. Even if there were still parts that did not meet the standards, it became easier for me to accept criticism and be able to frankly admit my shortcomings, and then do a better job next time.
I am very grateful for Master’s arrangements and fellow practitioners’ integrity and compassion. They are very tolerant of my shortcomings and troubles, and truly practice Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
With the ups and downs of the views on our channel, the psychological pressure faced by us is still relatively high. There are times that I think that my own shortcomings have caused this result, and my mood is also ups and downs. Sometimes I have self-doubt which makes it hard for me to calm down at work.
Later, I also understood that self-media can also save sentient beings. Although it seems that everyday people are also doing programs, in fact, what we have to bear is not as simple as it seems on the surface. The nature of the channel and the starting point are different, so it is not the same.So it won’t be easy, and I shouldn’t give up so easily.
My husband obtained the Fa after watching Shen Yun
Last year I made a wish that my husband and I would go to Taiwan to see Shen Yun this year. When Shen Yun was about to start performing, my financial situation did not allow me to go abroad. I thought that this wish would never come true. What I didn’t expect was that my aunt, who is also a practitioner, called me and asked if I wanted to watch Shen Yun. She said that I should go and fulfill this dream.
With her help, I have invited my husband, who was not a practitioner at the time, to watch Shen Yun. More than ten years ago, because I did not properly handle family relationships and only focused on work and truth-clarifying projects, my husband had bad thoughts about me, projects and even on Dafa. As long as it was related to Dafa, he and I were not able to communicate.
After realizing this problem and understanding that balancing family relationships is also about saving these sentient beings, my husband and I have experienced great changes in our relationship in recent years. He began to watch NTDTV news and TV programs, and understood the truth about the Chinese Communist Party’s persecution of Falun Gong. However, whenever Dafa was mentioned, he still had some obstacles that prevented him from agreeing.
He also came to attend a Fa conference in 2018 and wanted to study Fa, but in the end he gave up.
In the past years, I started to tell my husband about Shen Yun’s performances, but in his opinion, it is hard to make money, so why would we spend money to go abroad just to watch performances. Maybe the time has come, so I mentioned it to him again this year. I told him how good Shen Yun is. Many people have recovered from their illnesses and even overcome some difficulties in life after watching Shen Yun. Shen Yun has given people hope.
At that time, he was not feeling well, and the burden of life made him feel miserable and desperate. I told him, I know we are in a difficult situation, but if life is so hopeless, why not go and have a look? Maybe it can give you new hope. As a result, he listened, and I could feel from the bottom of his heart that he wanted to be saved.
When watching Shen Yun, he is very focused on the show. Before entering the theater, my husband suffered from neck pain for a month and could not turn his neck from side to side. While watching the show, he found that he could move his neck. After walking out of the theater, the pain in his neck had almost gone.
Later, he said that he seemed to see some strange image for a moment, he saw himself being persecuted and thrown into a cell like the protagonist in the show. After I sharing with fellow practitioners, they thought that this might be the true state of sentient beings before they were saved. I realized that sentient beings who did not know the truth were the victims.
Not long after my husband came back from watching Shen Yun in Taiwan, he seemed to have another voice in his heart telling him that it was time to study the Fa. Then one day while driving, he suddenly felt awake, as if something had been taken away instantly from his mind.
I happened to come to Kuala Lumpur at that time, so I was able to buy the English version of “Zhuan Falun” from a fellow practitioner and bring it back to Sabah for him. Later, after studying the Fa, he shared with me that he understood what was blocking him before, it was thought karma. I think it was Master who saw his wish to practice cultivation and helped him to get rid of his thought karma.
Now he is a new practitioner. Whenever he has bad thoughts in his mind, he will silently recite the nine-character: Falun Dafa Hao, Zhen Shan Ren Hao, and push away those thoughts that are not his. I wish that from now on we can encourage each other to follow the path of cultivation, so that we can shoulder the responsibility of assisting Master in Fa-rectification.
Getting Rid of Video Game Addiction
Video game addiction is a stubborn attachment that has troubled me for many years but I never dared to bring it up. However, in recent years, this attachment is causing me to walk backward in my cultivation path, it even made me almost leave the practice. I would like to take this opportunity to expose this attachment. Next, I will share on the journey of getting rid of video game addiction.
I have loved playing various video games since I was a kid, these games give me a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction that I cannot get in the real world. When I was in elementary school, my grades in school were pretty good. My family gave me some reward because I got good grades, and I used the money to buy my first game console.
Since then, in addition to studying hard, I have also been playing hard. I have formed a concept that I can take care of both games and studies at the same time, and I am quite proud of it. I was a quiet person, however when the topic of games comes up, I will talk uncontrollably about the storyline in the game, how to beat the levels, etc., without any regard for the feelings of my classmates.
When I was 17 years old, in order to focus on studies for exams, I naturally stopped playing games. I have also obtained the Fa that year. Now that I think about it, maybe Master had arranged for me to let go of video games, but I never realized.
When I was in college, I became addicted to online games. I still thought that I was quite smart, and even thought I would after practicing Dafa, we will gain wisdom. I never thought online games had any impact on my studies.
Now that when I look back, In fact, addiction in games made my thoughts confused, there is no wisdom in me. My college grades were not outstanding, and I didn’t behave like a cultivator. I even made some friends through games.
Master mentioned the dangers and harms of video games many times in the lectures. After I got to know about these Fa, I stopped playing games at all for several years. But games have never stopped tempting me.
I started to play games again after a few years. And I knew exactly I shouldn’t play, but I still played with guilt. There were a few times when I played for a few days, then I realized it was wrong and uninstalled the game. Now that it is more convenient to download games on mobile phones, it is gradually becoming more difficult for me to disconnect myself from games.
I play games when I am tired from work, and play games when I feel depressed. I wasted a lot of time on games. I know this is a wrong thing to do. The time we have is so precious. How can I waste time playing when Master has extended three realms for sentient being? I know the principles of the Fa, and I was being silly.
But as mentioned in Lecture 6 of “Zhuan Falun”, “If you fail the test the first time, the next one is going to be harder. ”
Uninstalling the game again and again and redownloading the game again and again. The more I became addicted to games, the more I became irritable, depressed, unable to do anything well, my mental and emotional state became very unstable. Whenever I encounter a problem in life or work, I want to escape.
The game temporarily paralyzed my emotions, but after it ended, I fell into depression. It was really no different from drug addiction. My righteous thoughts were gradually worn away. I felt that I was not worthy of being a Dafa disciple, and my whole state became very depressed. But this situation made it even more difficult for me to study the Fa or practice the 5 exercises. I couldn’t even handle my daily life well, and I felt very bad. I even wanted to give up everything, but I do not want to discredit Dafa.
This situation goes up and down sometimes. Fortunately, I have fellow practitioners who communicate rationally with me from time to time based on the Fa. By chance, we studied Master’s recent new scriptures several times a day, and then we shared our understanding. We practiced the exercises together and gradually increased to practice together everyday. During studying Fa and doing exercises, I felt myself being cleansed, and I regained the joy I felt when I first obtained the Fa.
Soon I have righteous thought to face this addiction, I took it too big and made myself very small. But now I feel that I am very tall. It’s really like what Master said, I can get over it in one step.
Again, I uninstalled all the games and started writing a diary. I wrote about the first day I stopped playing games and how my thoughts moved. If evil interferes, I will write it down. It won’t be able to escape. I also observed and wrote about how my life would change if I stopped playing games.
On the first day I didn’t play games, the thought of playing came to my mind from time to time. I rejected this thought, and I didn’t even look at the game ads that appeared on my phone. My head hurt very much that day. I realized that this live matter was going to be wiped out, that’s why it hurt so much. After I realized this, my head immediately stopped hurting.
The next day, I began to show signs of depression and wanted to seek outside, like go shopping to satisfy my desires.
On the third day, my irritability became more obvious. I found the root cause. In the game, I can basically control everything and indulge in the beauty of life. However, the real world is not something that humans can control. Because of the gap between reality and expectations, I felt anxious and particularly restless on this day. Normally, I would have re-downloaded the game at this point to escape reality.
On the fourth and fifth days, my husband was still a new disciple. He suggested that I install the game back because my whole body is emitting negative energy, but I was not tempted. That night I had a dream, in which I dreamed that he was pulling me to escape, but the road before us was dark and chaotic. After waking up, I started to practice the exercises online with fellow practitioners.
As a result, on this day I suddenly lost the desire to play games. Instead, I felt like I wanted to run some distance away from the game. After that I had no desire to play games for several days.
But on the tenth day, the desire to play came up again. It was a game about building a better life and building a better house. I had been addicted to it many times and always uninstalled it because I realized that I had an attachment for a better human life.
This time I once again saw the same attachment, it was a desire for a better life, it was really big. Often this attachment is hidden behind the thoughts on how to manage my daily life well. This is also quite silly. The old universe is no longer good and is undergoing Fa-rectification. I still hold these illusions about my life, dreaming for a better ordinary human life. Through this incident, I also understand this point more clearly.
In the days that followed, I found that I could focus more and more on my work, and my work became smoother. Only then did I realize that the difficulties and lack of wisdom in work and study were sometimes caused by things that I couldn’t let go of.
It is quite embarrassing for me to struggle in such attachment. After all, when real Dafa disciples are making brave efforts in saving sentient beings, I insist on falling into a puddle of mud on the ground and rolling around in it. I refused to stand up for a long time. Gradually I felt that I was not worthy of being a true Dafa disciple and saving people, and I gradually wanted to give up on all truth-clarification projects.
But now that I have spoken out, I do hope that I am awake now, because I know that there will not be much time and opportunities left.
The above is the sharing of experience in my cultivation. If there are any shortcomings, please correct me. Heshi.