Young Practitioner Sharing the Beauty of Falun Dafa Cultivation
Greetings to Master!
Greetings to fellow practitioners!
I am Lim Fang Xian, 19 years old. I am from Sandakan, Sabah. I started cultivation in end of 2016. I would like to take this opportunity to present my experience sharing to Master, that there is a young practitioner whose mind, soul and body have been cleansed and purified by DaFa, who is embarking on the road to returning to origin and true self. I hope my experience sharing would enable people to understand the greatness of Dafa. I also hope we could encourage each other and be more diligent in the process of assisting Master in Fa-rectification. Below is the sharing of my insights and experience for cultivating over a year.
- A different person before and after cultivation
I started cultivating seriously in the end of 2016. Before that, I heard about Dafa from my father. At that time, I blamed myself for being ignorant that I did not take Dafa in a correct manner and missed the opportunity of obtaining the Fa. While I was in adolescence, I always wonder what was the true meaning in life? I realized human beings have too little control of their own destiny. No matter how powerful a person is, he/she cannot run away from his/her fate. At this time, I remembered Falun Dafa. I always felt that the answer I was looking for was in this Zhuan Falun. So, I picked up Dafa book with my own consciousness without any encouragement from anyone. For me, the purpose of seeking the Fa is not for health nor fulfilling my parents’ requirements. I am here for the truth. I know this is what I want. This thought has set me right in the process of cultivation. After learning Zhuan Falun, a lot of puzzles in life that I could not understand before suddenly came to light, I also understood what Master said, “In truth, the spiritual journey is none other than an ongoing process of learning to let go of the things of this world that we may be attached to.” 【1】Therefore, I was able to be different from others in school, not to be emotional about small ‘rewards’, strongly pursing fame and fortune, getting all sorts of attachments at the expense of virtue. On the other hand, with the mentality of not pursuing something that is not mine and let nature takes its course. I realized I have become happier and contended. Most importantly, I gained something that other students would not, the real spiritual progress.
Now, I feel a bit unbearable to look back. Before cultivation, I was temperamental, cunning, arrogant and have strong attachment to fame and fortune. I would be very jealous of those who score higher marks than me in school. I would be talking to them ironically and be sarcastic to them deliberately. Otherwise, I would feel imbalance. I also liked to pick others’ faults and be sarcastic to them to make myself look good. I always looked down on others when their results were not as good as mine. I did not like to interact with students with poor grades. At home, my attitude was bad and I was rude towards my parents and grandparents. I spoke like someone who is not cultivated, very rude and full of swearing words. I even scolded my grandmother for being noisy when she nagged me. Looking back, I feel really unbearable and guilty that I wish I would teach the ‘old’ me a lesson! Only if I could meet Dafa earlier and cultivate with my heart, these things would not have happened.
After obtaining the Fa, I understood that in order to upgrade our level we had to emphasize de and xinxing cultivation. Started from being a good person, I was not very good at cultivating in the beginning that I did not do well in a lot of areas, failed to keep my xinxing. I am getting better now that I could reflect according to Fa. Initially, the most obvious change was, I stopped swearing. Totally no swearing during conversation, even when there were unexpected incidents such as feeling very painful hitting on things, having a typo etc. This change amazed my family, including myself. My attitude towards my family is getting better, but still to improve gradually. At least, what amazed me was, I could introspect, this never happened before I cultivated. In school, I stopped competing and would not be jealous when others score better grades than me. When I reach the realm of able to let go of jealousy without having to resist it strongly, l could really experience the wonder of truly letting go of jealousy. The joy of winning a fight is incomparable to this wonderful feeling of joy. Of course, after a while, this feeling was gone when jealousy reappeared. It means, it is time to tell myself to improve. If there is no Dafa to uplift my moral standard, I could not imagine what sort of person I would have become.
There is another thing that is still fresh in my memory: In primary school, I was placed in the last class due to poor morality. The standard of the students of the last class was really bad. My attachment to fame and fortune was very strong, so were my attachments to lust and jealousy. A student who was once like this could achieve all high distinctions in SPM except only for one subject. To share this story is not to show off but to compliment Dafa’s greatness. I believe there are lots of Dafa disciples having the same kind of experience as me. I realized that if a person’s soul and mind are not pure, God will not bless him/her, Master said in Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles, “Whichever field you might be in, when you are able to improve your skills, that is a reflection of your having continually risen in realm. And people can see that you are a good person and someone who cultivates his or her heart and mind. From the vantage point of human beings, you are becoming a good person. As a result of studying the Fa and cultivating your inner self, you do better and better, and gods give you the wisdom you deserve and give you inspiration so that you can come to realize a lot of things while you study, create better things, improve your technique, and reach beyond.”【2】I think studying and learning is a skill, only with efforts and cultivation both working hand in hand, the reward will be doubled with the effort you put in. This is what I have gone through. After purifying the soul, learning become very effective. My gratitude towards Dafa is endless. Looking back, what a big difference of me before and after obtaining Fa. That’s why I said, if there is anything in the world that would melt a stone-hearted person, it is only Dafa, I am the closest example. 2. Master’s special arrangement, assisting Master in Fa Rectification Looking back, I realised that Master has already been taking care of me even before I heard about Dafa. For example, during the policy reformation in my school, public speaking was widely encouraged. This has made me more courageous to clarify the truth to the Chinese people who were ‘poisoned’ by the CCP. Another example was the various reasons that had cultivated my interest in music when I was in secondary school, I turned out to be a trumpet player in the Tian Guo Marching Band. There are a lot more things that Master has carefully arranged for disciples, all are for me to be a rational Dafa disciple, especially turning me from a person with bad moral to a practitioner with high morality. I was born in Sabah, the cultivation environment was not very good, hardly in contact with fellow practitioners. Therefore, I always cherish the time with fellow practitioners. I was also very anxious about having a channel to assist Master in Fa rectification. I wished to have an opportunity to travel to West Malaysia to be with fellow practitioners to pursue the Fa rectification progress and to be integrated into the one body. While looking forward to come over to West Malaysia, I spent a year of my high school to get rid of a lot of attachments, which laid a strong foundation for me to assist Master in Fa rectification in West Malaysia. Whenever I think of all the things that happened after I came to West Malaysia, I realised that I am always under the care of Master.
I found the site of practice during the first week of my arrival in Kuala Lumpur. The site is very near LRT station. I was very surprised to be able to find a practice site so easily! If it was not for Master’s arrangement, would it be so easy? Coordinator at the site corrected my mistakes in doing the exercises, and also introduced another practice site to me the next day. So I went to another practice site the next day. I met more practitioners there and they introduced me to group Fa study, TianGuo Marching Band, truth-clarification etc. All the doors opened within three months, awaiting me to take action. Therefore, I cherish all the Fa validation activities, because I could feel that Master is ‘asking’ me to do it! I would like to take this opportunity to thank fellow practitioners to create such an environment for Malaysia. Whenever I hear about fellow practitioners’ story of the earlier days, their suffering, I will cherish the opportunities even more. Thank you fellow practitioners.
- Understand the Fa Rationally is the fundamental of Validating the Fa
My celestial eye is not opened, I rarely feel the Falun but I believe in Master. I believe Master said that,” A great cultivation way is extremely simple and easy.” 【3】And the great cultivation way in concluded in 3 words: Truthfulness, Benevolence, Forbearance. Among this, “Truthfulness” includes “Trust”. I realised, If I could believe in Dafa unconditionally, even though there is no miracle appear in front of me, I will still believe him hundred percent, that will be my virtue, it will be my brilliance of cultivation in the future. To achieve this, I must learn the fa rationally, truly understand what is Dafa.
Master said,” Nowadays people consider emotion really important, yet emotion is one of the most unreliable things.” 【4】 I realize, if I am only staying in the phase thinking that Master is granting me with good health and good life, therefore Dafa is good ……. Of course there is nothing wrong with this thought. But I also realized this ‘Qing’ is not going to be long lasting. It is like thinking that Dafa is good because I benefited from it, then only willing to work for Dafa and believe in Dafa. This is dangerous. If we only believe in Dafa due to these reasons, what would happen if there is illusions? Would I still believe in Dafa? If I firmly believe that Dafa could make me free from illness, and there is illusion of sickness deceiving me that Dafa could not treat illness, would I still believe in Dafa? Therefore, I realise the only way is to understand the Fa rationally to achieve believing in Dafa unconditionally, evil will have no way to disrupt my righteous thought. If I believe in Dafa firmly, how would evil challenge me? Clearing all these thoughts will be able to achieve the status mentioned by Master, “Your practice will have a good chance of success if you can disregard any supposed Buddha, Daoist deity, divinity, or fiend that tries to tempt you.【5】 , “
For example, the first few months was very hard when I started clarifying the truth at tourist spot. I used to feel that I cultivated pretty well, but it was not the same when I was at the site. All sort of attachments such as fear and fear of losing face etc would show up. I ended up standing at a corner distributing newspapers, did not even dare to open my mouth. Sometimes being scolded and sneered by the Chinese people. The security guards would interfere at times. Sometimes I would be moved by these but I could quickly get my emotions under control by referring to Fa principles to strengthen my righteous thoughts. I still go to the sites to clarify the truth regardless of their behaviour. I insist going to the site no matter what. Fellow practitioners would encourage me by saying, as a young Dafa disciple, by standing at the site distributing the truth information is validating Fa. Sometimes they would even take me as a starting point to clarify the truth. Sometimes when I was distributing newspapers, some Chinese would say, “practise at such a young age?” I am very happy to hear this, at least I make some impact. With this, I appeal to all young disciples around the world to step out to validate the Fa, let the world knows that Dafa spread around the world regardless of age.
This situation lasted a few months, I felt the urgency even more as I study Fa, because Master’s teaching was getting more and more towards Fa rectification. It seems like Master gives affirmation to truth clarification in his teaching all the time. I feel that if I don’t open my mouth to clarify the truth, isn’t this the attachment that I should get rid of? How could I achieve consummation with this? Master has been asking us to clarify the truth. Therefore I began to study various truth-clarifying materials, The Epoch Times, Minghui.com, read more about the truth-clarifying materials, even making notes. Just having an intention to do this in my heart, I was able to open my mouth to clarify the truth the next day. Everything had changed within a night, Master saw that I have the heart to save sentient beings and gave me the ability to do this.
At the same time, I also realized that I could refer to the way fellow practitioners clarifying the truth but I should not copy totally. I had to find a way that suit myself in terms of truth clarification. This is because different person has different level of cultivation, different origin. If this is the case, fellow practitioners will use their wisdom based on their different origins, in saving sentient beings. If we do not have the same conditions, we cannot fully follow the practices of other fellow practitioners. It may be possible at the beginning, but it must be done in our own ways afterwards. This is also the way Master wants us to be, take our own paths. Dafa disciples cannot be doing things exactly the same way. A same sentence could be magical if said by others as is a presentation of different levels so it’d be powerful and could save sentient beings. Therefore, I will cultivate well, find a suitable way within my level to clarify the truth in order to save sentient beings in a better way. With the upgrading of our levels, we also need to continuously find better ways in truth clarification, because when the level is higher, we would be more powerful in clarifying the truth more effectively. Therefore, I know I cannot stop at where I am but to continue to clarify the truth better. This is to be responsible to Dafa projects, be responsible to Dafa too. I would like to take this opportunity to encourage fellow practitioners to come out for truth clarification. I am not saying that this is easy, on the other hand, I would say this is very hard, it is because of the hardship you could cultivate. The bigger the tribulation, the bigger the virtue. I remember a fellow practitioner told me this: hardship is for cultivation, by the time there is no hardship, it could be the time to end. Personally I totally agree to what he says, it is actually like this.
Even though I have only participated in truth clarification for half a year, the more I do it, the more I could feel the difficulty of Master in saving sentient beings. And the greatness of saving sentient beings. I have lots of experience which I am not going into details. But when I truly understand the meaning of saving sentient beings and the huge responsibility of doing this, I would do it voluntarily from my heart. This is for Dafa, Master, Universe as well as for ourselves.
Conclusion
Fellow practitioners, we are fortunate to be able to assist Master in Fa rectification, Our virtues are great. I remember Master said, “Your responsibility is big, but the payback that awaits you is enormous. What you will gain later on far exceeds what you put in, as much as that may be.” 【6】Sometimes I would think, why is the gain more than what we put in? Isn’t it about what you give is what you get? By continuously studying Fa, I found the answer. Master said,”If a person could be fully aware while enduring hardships and cultivate to high levels, who wouldn’t do it? Why does a Buddha cultivate very slowly when he continues to cultivate upward? It’s because he has almost no way to endure hardships. Only when he makes special contributions can he improve a little bit. There’s this reason.” 【7】Just because we hold the responsibility of assisting Master in Fa rectification, what we have done during this period has never existed in the universe. Therefore, we will have a brilliant future, what we gain will not be proportionate with what we give. However, it is extremely hard to do well with this huge responsibility, the road is very narrow. Because of this, the harder it gets, the greater the virtue. Thus we deserve a brilliant future. The purpose of sharing my experience is to encourage the practitioners who are still not coming out to let go of attachments to validate Fa. It is a hard process, but I feel everything is worthy, Master is helping us all the time.
In fact, I still have lots of attachment I could not get rid of, I only share the good examples of tests I passed. I also have lots of things that I don’t do well, but I will work harder to pass the tests I have yet to pass. Above are some shallow understanding of my recent cultivation. Please correct me kindly should there be anything that is not conformed with Fa. Thank again Master for everything you have done for me! I will try not to fail the mission, achieve consummation to go back with Master! Thank you everyone!
【1】: 《Zhuan Falun》
【2】: 《Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles》
【3】: 《Falun Gong》
【4】: 《Teaching the Fa at the Meeting with Asia-Pacific Students》
【5】: 《Zhuan Falun》 （The Sixth Talk）
【6】: 《Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York》
【7】: 《Explaining the Fa for Falun Dafa Assistants in Changchun 》